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Do you recall how I talked about trying to learn about faith, HERE?

This past month has been a wee bit nuts. I was called to serve as the Young Women’s President for the youth organization of my ward of the The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. We will have close to 50 girls by the end of this year. I won’t say that I didn’t freak out when I was asked to do this, because that would be a bold faced lie! I freaked. I cried. I tried to hide in my house and disappear. Problem with that is responsibility just waits. And, it sure waited.

What does this mean for me? It means I’m in charge of a huge organization of girls ages 12-18… their Sunday spiritual learning, the weekly activities, Girl’s Camp, Youth Conference…I could go on and on. My initial thought was “how?” I have a husband who is gone A LOT {and, who was diagnosed with a heart condition at the same time that this was all going down! Which I’m sure helped increase the magnitude of said freak out.} I have 4 little kids. I “Squirrel” quite frequently. I’m flighty. I am a horrible HORRIBLE planner because I naturally just wing everything in my life. {You can’t pull something out of your ear for 50 teenagers. Not gonna fly!} I’m completely right brained. Then, let’s add to that the fact that I’m tremendously independent and a failure of a delegator and, well, you can see where I’m going here.

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Maybe the Lord put me in this crazy calling because He needs me to be more than I am at this moment, and this is one way to teach me to gain the skills I lack. Maybe He wants me to work my way towards the middle. Maybe there is a little flighty gal or a control freak who need my quirks. I may never fully understand the “why this” right now.

But, once I finally let go of my fear and turned my will over to the Lord, things started falling into place. There is still a ton of chaos, but there are also tender mercies. He blessed me with 6 incredible women to assist me as my counselors, secretary, and class advisors. Funny thing is, they each possess a strength to counter balance my weakness. It’s amazing how that worked out. I’m still struggling with trying to get this train moving, but I know that when we do, this will be an incredible ride for each of us. I’m still terrified, but I’m learning trust. I have faith that I will be able to be there for these girls, help them come closer to Christ, learn and grow myself, be a loving and attentive wifey AND raise a fantastic little family, also. Like my dad always says, “You can have it all.” It doesn’t have to be one or the other. Hopefully, this adventure is going to teach me to juggle.

Guess now I know why I have had such a big internal urge to get my junk in ORDER!

Interesting how that works, isn’t it?

Have you taken on something big and scary this year? Have you been pushed outside your box? What are you learning?

Oh, and if you have any fabulous ideas or helpful websites for working with youth, please share! I’d love to know about projects, personal progress ideas, and other activities you may have seen, pretty pretty pretty please!